Finding Strength Through Writing: A Journey Beyond PTSD
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The Impact of Stoicism
I resonate profoundly with Stoicism, a philosophy that not only saved my life but also provided new meaning to it. During my last combat deployment, I found myself in a dark mental state. Despite my usual voracious reading habits, I limited myself to two books: Frank Herbert's "Dune" and Marcus Aurelius' "Meditations." The insights from both texts opened my mind, but it was Aurelius' work that equipped me to confront my PTSD. I am convinced that this ancient wisdom can aid countless individuals grappling with mental health challenges or the pressures of contemporary life.
Writing as a Therapeutic Tool
Initially, I never envisioned myself as a writer. After leaving the military, my therapist at the VA recommended journaling as a form of therapy. I had no formal education in writing, but I began documenting my memories of war from a third-person perspective. This method allowed me to detach from traumatic experiences and simply narrate my story. The act of writing became a cathartic release for emotions like rage, resentment, and survivor's guilt, helping to cleanse my spirit. Writing turned out to be an affordable alternative to traditional therapy, allowing me to express myself while in my most comfortable attire.
Though writing started as a mere hobby, my peers in group therapy recognized my potential before I did. When I finally gathered the courage to share one of my entries, I felt nervous yet determined. Speaking in public was easy, but sharing my written words felt intensely personal. Nevertheless, I read aloud to a group of twenty men, each with their own harrowing stories. By the end, there wasn't a dry eye in the room. Writing can be compared to intimacy; sometimes it’s exhilarating, other times it falls flat, but when it resonates, it’s truly powerful.
Daily Writing and Self-Reflection
Today, I write over 2,500 words daily, blending my profession with personal growth. Writing not only allows me to track my flaws but also helps me create strategies for improvement. Engaging in focused writing sessions fosters deep introspection, illuminating my weaknesses and offering clarity. Additionally, I use writing to remind loved ones of their worth, crafting heartfelt letters rather than sending quick texts.
In a world obsessed with efficiency, it’s essential to remember the significance of meaningful communication. While digital messages might be convenient, they lack the depth of handwritten letters. I keep a box filled with the letters I received during my deployment, knowing that no text or call could match the sentimental value of those tangible reminders of love and connection.
The Value of Handwritten Letters
The time it took to receive letters added to their significance, turning simple scraps of paper into cherished mementos. These letters brought me joy during dark times, reminding me of the beauty that can emerge from hardship. My writing has evolved, influenced by great authors like Homer, Aurelius, and Hemingway, who have helped articulate my innermost feelings.
While many may romanticize the concept of a "writer," the reality is often more grounded. It’s not about embodying a rebellious archetype but rather about committing to the craft, showing up daily, and creating something meaningful. This dedication to writing is far from punk rock; it’s about discipline and hard work.
The Importance of Authenticity
People often have unrealistic expectations of writers, envisioning them as larger-than-life characters. However, I am simply a blend of sarcasm, Scotch, and questionable choices. I don’t require a muse; I need only a deadline and a bottle to keep me motivated. My typewriter serves a functional purpose beyond its nostalgic appeal; it demands intentionality and discipline, preventing me from erasing mistakes with a simple keystroke.
In the digital realm, many individuals mistake blogging for writing. If you're merely trying to monetize your thoughts through tedious affiliate marketing, you're not truly writing. True writing requires depth, experience, and a willingness to share your story with the world.
Finding Your Voice Through Writing
Living an interesting story includes chapters that may evoke shame or regret. Yet, some of the most profound writing emerges from these darker times. If you're grappling with mental health issues, I encourage you to pick up a pen. Writing can be a powerful tool for healing, regardless of your background or experience level.
Expressing your thoughts can forge connections and potentially assist others facing similar struggles. I urge you to write to the people you cherish, putting thought into letters that hold more weight than texts or emojis. Let’s revive the art of letter writing, creating something richer and more meaningful.
For those young men out there, step away from the screen and dive into literature that expands your horizons. Engage in discussions that challenge you, and ensure you leave behind memories worth cherishing—far beyond digital messages.
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